i don't think it's a coincidence when people ask for advice on the exact same thing you're struggling on

cosmic

tree of knowledge of good and evil

until yesterday, i never really grasped the fact that the tree of knowledge of good and evil could have been thus named as an object lesson, and not because it could only give you such knowledge if you ate it. MIND BLOWING

sometimes i feel sooooooooooooo slow

man's profound need for companionship in conjunction with need for God is out of this world. or maybe it's in this world :)

recognition of loneliness as a sign of maturation... wow. at least God still talks to me... apparently i'm maturing! hehe...

i'm learning a lot just preparing for sg.

augh and what if your fellow human being is deceiving you? i feel so naive... again :(

gpc had a town hall meeting tonight. it was cool listening to older and wiser people, but kinda scary dealing with questions with no immediately discernible "right" answer... is there even a real "right" answer for us to find? the more povs i listen to, the more i realize that all sound so reasonable if you listen closely. one issue brought up: the fine line between being reasonable and being spiritual... is it only in our broken world today that we feel that this is supposed to be a valid question?

this situation is even more superbly (combo of words??) intimidating when you realize how much commitment and trust it'll take to be able to make a decision and stick with it, believing everything will turn out okay... and i'm just sitting there listening... ownership is overwhelming

from a later event, i found that these gray questions abound. what do you do in these events? i definitely learned to listen, but began to question how well i actually do. also in question are how well do i think and then react with these thoughts going on in my head, do i think about what i say to other people...? will i know when i actually hurt them? how to fix, if i don't..?

how much do you love your fellow human being? something to improve, still.

It started out as a feeling
Which then grew into a hope
Which then turned into a quiet thought
Which then turned into a quiet word

And then that word grew louder and louder
'Til it was a battle cry
I'll come back
When you call me
No need to say goodbye

Just because everything's changing
Doesn't mean it's never been this way before
All you can do is try to know who your friends are
As you head off to the war

Pick a star on the dark horizon
And follow the light
You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back when it's over
No need to say goodbye

Now we're back to the beginning
It's just a feeling and no one knows yet
But just because they can't feel it too
Doesn't mean that you have to forget

Let your memories grow stronger and stronger
'Til they're before your eyes
You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

You'll come back
When they call you
No need to say goodbye

proverbs 3.5-6