Monday, May 19, 2008

would it embarass you if i told you i love you?

today:

mcat class.

ucity library.

lunch at stl bubble tea and walking around forest park with cc.

then with linh and joyce at thai country cafe.

moving crap around my car to safely take joyce and dennis to the airport.

seeing joyce off.

taking dennis back to the lou.

meshuggah cafe with dennis.

bikers. screaming costume party.

people.

more bubble tea talking to dennis.

more talking.

back.

the highlights of my day seem so random but, surprisingly, God always pulls everything together in a way that you can never see at the moment and sometimes not until you look for it intentionally. how is it that one can be so hugely apparent and so small and quiet at the same time? it's a mystery :)

i love mcat class! so far haha ^^ but we'll see. having nothing to do for a week did something to me i think. someone hit me over the head

after studying what i could at the ucity library, i started writing in my moleskein while waiting for cc and pondering the reason for doing things. everything. things that came to mind: colossians, 1 corinthians, the switchfoot song.. meant to live, joyce's architecture graduation speaker (hansen?)'s quote from his dad on his deathbed: "there is no room in this world for mediocrity"... there really is no room for mediocrity. the world, in its situation, demands our very best for change. i know that's really general, but my thoughts were interrupted by a phone call signifying lunch... so it's ok.

joyce and cc will not be seen tomorrow... who knows when they'll return? i'm going to miss them. lunch and the walk with cc brought back memories of the old times when we'd talk until odd hours in the morning... but this time, the subject matter was completely different. i love hearing from people in relationships about their relationships with people because perspective completely changes.

dennis. mentorship/humility roles in relationships. weirdness of friendships and relationships. focus of relationships.


Dennis:
We do not need to live our entire life angry
with our past or with our weakness.
We do not have to be resentful towards our parents,
our society or our church
because they have hurt us.
We are called to discover that no pain is ever useless.
It is more like manure spread on the ground.
It smells horrid and seems only to be waste,
but in fact it enriches and nourishes the earth,
allowing it to bring forth new life.
Nothing is lost.
Jesus welcomes everything that is broken.
If we give him our weakness
he will transform it into a source of life.
Jin: oh wow
where is that from?
it's the freeverse poem?
Dennis: Yeah.
Jean Vanier.

3 comments:

Mike M said...

maybe no room for mediocrity, but in christ, there is the freedom to try and fail.

Daniel said...
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Daniel said...

Sounds like you've been keeping yourself busy Jin Tran. Do well on your MCAT! ^^