Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
our pride scars us most when we deceive ourselves by cloaking and masking it in indifference, conditional tolerance, self-deprecation, and perpetuate it with busy-ness and isolation.
praying for, working for, looking forward to the day we can bare our deepest, most painful scars like vets compare their old war wounds and boast.
1 corinthians
praying for, working for, looking forward to the day we can bare our deepest, most painful scars like vets compare their old war wounds and boast.
1 corinthians
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
charley showed me shanghai kiss tonight. we almost watched ping pong! but anyways. probably not the best of movies, but one of those that kinda sucker punches me. who am i kidding... i cry in almost every movie :P no but really! this one's for those who look for the juno-esque witty one-liners and delight in quirky sayings (fewer and farther between as the movie goes on though), within the tired, horribly wrung out plot of self-hating asian learning to appreciate more of self. oh well. he's witty, at least :D
in other news: visited dianna this past weekend! cute seeing her famfam (joyce is right, they DO make you happy!!! ^^) and awesome hanging out with her plus others. :)
parents are in vietnam from hk and china with paternal grandma... got a call yesterday! prayers please..
it's so weird not being able to reach them anytime you want. sad. perhaps only charley really left the nest... but at least our family split up in pairs this summer. hooray charley :)
every time i talk to my grandma, she says "you're such a smart girl... keep studying to be a doctor!.. have you eaten yet?... you're a good girl... what time is it there.. shouldn't you be sleeping?? ok my hearing is bad... goodnight!"
my computer doesn't do (hasn't done..) internet in the apartment for some strange strange reason tsk tsk. oh well. isolation might be good for studying! and studying can make a person so antisocial and... isolated.
sheesh why am i blogging so late?! perhaps i just want to see some people talking to me next time i log into blogspot ;) what a shameless plug haha ^^ time to run away before the shame strikes. ew i don't even know if i can read this next time i log in... peace!
hope you all are doing well. :) i miss y'all
in other news: visited dianna this past weekend! cute seeing her famfam (joyce is right, they DO make you happy!!! ^^) and awesome hanging out with her plus others. :)
parents are in vietnam from hk and china with paternal grandma... got a call yesterday! prayers please..
it's so weird not being able to reach them anytime you want. sad. perhaps only charley really left the nest... but at least our family split up in pairs this summer. hooray charley :)
every time i talk to my grandma, she says "you're such a smart girl... keep studying to be a doctor!.. have you eaten yet?... you're a good girl... what time is it there.. shouldn't you be sleeping?? ok my hearing is bad... goodnight!"
my computer doesn't do (hasn't done..) internet in the apartment for some strange strange reason tsk tsk. oh well. isolation might be good for studying! and studying can make a person so antisocial and... isolated.
sheesh why am i blogging so late?! perhaps i just want to see some people talking to me next time i log into blogspot ;) what a shameless plug haha ^^ time to run away before the shame strikes. ew i don't even know if i can read this next time i log in... peace!
hope you all are doing well. :) i miss y'all
Thursday, July 3, 2008
yesterday was unbelievable... but i think i'm far enough removed from most of yesterday's thinking to look back and laugh hehe :)
9:00 am: contact falls out. too prideful to ask ride to swing back to my place before library, so contact remains out after classes and until studying is over around 5:00 pm. mental chaos and headache (this sounds so emo heh ^^)
5:00 pm. tire blows out. noooo x.x while charley drives it. haha. this was actually a good thing, because charley did what he needed to do. props to the bro! charley is late. explosive tran tempers surface. i will learn to deal with things like this much better. find out that there is no electricity in the apartment... aiyah! supposedly it'll be back around 7.
6:30 pm. arrive at med school. worst mood on the face of the earth. decides to let it out on the bball court. horray for brute force! :) jk. but really, sports do wonders when you're down. sports, and eating ^^ charley's improved in basketball. super happy :)
8:00 pm. finally decide to work.
10:00 pm. brain is shot. goodbye med school!
10:30 pm. there is still no electricity. we use cell phone lights to find stuff. relocation: scott's pad. boy living quarters are ohmygoodness. tries to ensure that boys do not die from bathroom mold before a rush online to seek resources. yay internet! i've been getting very little signal to none in my own apartment. sad. thank goodness for stephanie suen and her hospitality.
11:30? 12? it's raining outside!! feels good :). i truly feel what dennis means by rain can be beautiful. i forgot my phone at scott's (!!!) SO charley drops me off at milbrook and i wait to get let in by buddy.
12:15 am ... ... ...
it took a while to get in. i learned last night that phones are super convenient. you don't know what have until you DON'T have it sigh.
super grateful for last night. things could definitely have been made easier if i were less stubborn and not so absent minded, but in the end, i realized that God gave me yesterday to really appreciate a normal day. i think i've been taking too much for granted lately. [setting my mind to study and work hard and put myself forward in life has consistently shown that i get into a very selfish mindset that assumes things should go my way. colossians 3:23 comes to mind when this happens :).] that days even go smoothly in our own standards, is a real blessing that i should be thankful for. beyond that, i got to hang out with a hospitable, hardworking sister that i've wanted to learn more about :)
inconceivable
9:00 am: contact falls out. too prideful to ask ride to swing back to my place before library, so contact remains out after classes and until studying is over around 5:00 pm. mental chaos and headache (this sounds so emo heh ^^)
5:00 pm. tire blows out. noooo x.x while charley drives it. haha. this was actually a good thing, because charley did what he needed to do. props to the bro! charley is late. explosive tran tempers surface. i will learn to deal with things like this much better. find out that there is no electricity in the apartment... aiyah! supposedly it'll be back around 7.
6:30 pm. arrive at med school. worst mood on the face of the earth. decides to let it out on the bball court. horray for brute force! :) jk. but really, sports do wonders when you're down. sports, and eating ^^ charley's improved in basketball. super happy :)
8:00 pm. finally decide to work.
10:00 pm. brain is shot. goodbye med school!
10:30 pm. there is still no electricity. we use cell phone lights to find stuff. relocation: scott's pad. boy living quarters are ohmygoodness. tries to ensure that boys do not die from bathroom mold before a rush online to seek resources. yay internet! i've been getting very little signal to none in my own apartment. sad. thank goodness for stephanie suen and her hospitality.
11:30? 12? it's raining outside!! feels good :). i truly feel what dennis means by rain can be beautiful. i forgot my phone at scott's (!!!) SO charley drops me off at milbrook and i wait to get let in by buddy.
12:15 am ... ... ...
it took a while to get in. i learned last night that phones are super convenient. you don't know what have until you DON'T have it sigh.
super grateful for last night. things could definitely have been made easier if i were less stubborn and not so absent minded, but in the end, i realized that God gave me yesterday to really appreciate a normal day. i think i've been taking too much for granted lately. [setting my mind to study and work hard and put myself forward in life has consistently shown that i get into a very selfish mindset that assumes things should go my way. colossians 3:23 comes to mind when this happens :).] that days even go smoothly in our own standards, is a real blessing that i should be thankful for. beyond that, i got to hang out with a hospitable, hardworking sister that i've wanted to learn more about :)
inconceivable
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